Aging

sometimes i wonder what it feels like to get old.

for the nth time, i let my anger over something else affect the rest of my day. something i should have just ignored altogether. it somehow seeped into the rest of the day. i even went so far as to argue with nel over a seemingly innocuous matter.

funny how some people rub off on you. but i think nel summed it up best: "You go to extremes. There are people who walk over you and yet you don't mind. Then there are people who are nice to you but these you think weird about."

Too high and too low. There ain't no in between.
If i stumble and fall, it's all or nothing at all.
Darling, i don't know why i go to extremes.
- Billy Joel "I Go To Extremes"

Anyway, i think it's true. I should stop selling myself short. Just walk away and say nothing. There are plenty of people who value your time and still manage to enjoy your company.

Besides, i got enough on my plate already. Work and otherwise. It's nice having schedules that are not day to day. Events management may be a short notice (i call it short order) job, but at least i enjoy a day's notice.

Hopefully, a few days at the beach next week with nothing but books and a mah jongg set will cure this premature aging i experience every now and then. Life is much simpler if you have a day's notice. Saves you from aggravating yourself over the unreliability of things.

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Anonymous said…
I happen to find your mood swings adorable. Or amusing. Or funny.

Except when they directly concern me. Hehehe.
12:47 AM
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