Painted Black


you know the saying "paint yourself in a corner?"

that could be very well my company slogan, if ever i decide to own a company. Misery is not a company, thank you very much, soul asylum, but i'm not in the market for anything but self-inflicted wounds.

anyway, it looks like the story of my life so far. options, options, options.. got plenty of them, and i seem to burn myself silly narrowing them down to one or two, in both cases resistance is futile.

take the company i work for right now. the pay is good, the benefits are ok (can't get them anywhere else, especially the car), and the conditions are downright miserable.

Im having fun
by sticking to my guns
but you gotta wonder what's it like to be out there...
somewhere
other than here.

at least i got my poetry mode on again.

then take my social life. it actually revolves around default settings. not that im complaining

old is gold
but some of the old
tarnishes the newer
so you gotta wonder what's it like to be out there...
somewhere
other than here.

i've been through some hellish times the past month, and it really disappoints learning that despite the maelstrom, other people are fully recovered and back to normal, faster than you ought to be.

makes you wonder why you bothered shooting yourself in the foot in the first place.

so i said i've died
but the others are alive
so you gotta wonder what's it like to be out there...
somewhere
other than here.

painting myself in a corner is all i've learned to do.
now that i've grown old and seemingly learned, why do i still do it?

i guess i love the smell of paint.

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