I don't know jack

Let's see. Based on my last entry, here is a summary of my active sports life:

Plays basketball, billiards, badminton, bowling, table tennis, doesn't mind running, knows a little volleyball, understands football (both kinds, but there is no way i can dedicate myself to the sport - not here in Manila), likes snorkeling a bit, and played ultimate frisbee once.

Neither good nor bad in these sports. Your average joe who doesn't want to be left behind so tries all these things. Just never mastered any of them to play competitively.

Just like my career, and my life in general.

In case the point still eludes, i guess i am meant to be a jack of all trades. You know, master of none. Gutsy enough to try but not dedicated enough to concentrate on a single field.

Should i examine the reason why in sports, career, and the rest of my totality, i seem to hover on being a jack-of-all-trades rather than a specialist?

Am i afraid to dedicate all time and effort on a single pursuit, with the held-back fear that despite everything, someone will always be better and i will remain mediocre?

Do i have little confidence in my natural, God-given talent that makes me afraid that a single minor mishap can set me back light-years?

Or is it simply that i chose my life to enjoy a little of everything in manageable bits and pieces so that i don't have to choke on the bone while sucking the marrow out of life?

I'd like to belive that it's the last theory that explains why i am this way, but the more logical explanation would be a combination of all the above.

I guess i'm a jack-of-all trades because it's more fun that way. I can't afford to be too serious. It would be the death of me.

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Anonymous said…
Sigh. My sentiments exactly.

I've started drafting a post very much like this one, but you beat me to it. Aaargh.

And I know I couldn't have written it as well as you did. We both know you're not mediocre. So I agree with you when you say that you probably just want to dabble in a little of everything. ;-)
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