Bleakness

for most, the current bleak weather is something to be dreaded about.

Me? I'm comfortably weird, so this weather somewhat makes me feel good. The gray overcast sky that threatens rain and any moment but won't yet? I used to walk along the tree lined avenues of UP wearing a flowing coat during these times.

Of course, when the mood darkens and rains pour nonstop, the fun ceases. It's gonna be hard laughing knowing some of your countrymates' houses are being swept away by floods that could have been easily prevented.

I'm digressing. Weather like this kinda recharges my batteries and helps keep me in perspective. The imminent threat of rain brings a promise that whatever recent bad days you might have will now be washed away.

Which reminds me of a classic toad the wet sprocket song:

Nothings so loud
As hearing when we lie
The truth is not kind
And youve said neither am i
But the air outside so soft is saying everything
Everything

All I want is to feel this way
To be this close, to feel the same
All I want is to feel this way
The evening speaks, I feel it say...

Nothings so cold
As closing the heart when all we need
Is to free the soul
But we wouldnt be that brave I know
And the air outside so soft, confessing everything
Everything

And it wont matter now
Whatever happens to me
Though the air speaks of all well never be
It wont trouble me

And it feels so close
Let it take me in
Let it hold me so
I can feel it say...

- "All I Want," Toad the Wet Sprocket

The weather talks to us. I can feel change coming.

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